The Sky Is Falling

Mainly because my battery died

But- what I ended up doing today was I went to the beach.

Like always. I felt like Ariel- except lost in sea with nothing but a thing-a-mo-bob.

I saw fireworks and it made me realize that’s how love is. Temporary happiness with sparks of “ooh’s” and “ahhhh’s” here and there. Perhaps you just need to find someone that’s your star. That’s willing to stay and not disappear into thin air. And then the song ‘Airplanes’ tuned in my mind. ‘Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars’ I was thinking- and thinking and thinking. Until I noticed I was just staring at the sky. a.k.a zoning out. That I wouldn’t know what to wish for. I’m pretty content with how my life is right now- whether it is horrible or whether it is good, I want to endure it.

That’s how you become stronger yanno?

So……moving on..

I really like that light travels faster than sound. It’s really soothing to watch and hear the delay.

Everyone is so hyped up with the thunder and lightening that’s been going on. I on the other hand enjoy it very much. Thunder- (to me on my opinion) is like a lullaby. It’s the only time I could fall asleep soundly and peacefully. I love it.

Speaking of love. There’s a lot of things I love- just not in love. I noticed there’s a really big difference of loving something/someone and being in love. I don’t think I can ever grasp the concept of ‘love’, perhaps it’s not something to think about but just do. The three word phrase- that I like to call death sentence “I love you.” rarely comes out of my mouth. No, I don’t like throwing it around- not even to my friends. Yes, it gives me chills even typing it out. It’s that special.

I can’t help but to make sure whomever I am saying these special phrases to- to know that it means a lot for me to say it. 

“I’m in love with you.” “I love you.” “Sweet Dreams.”

I actually have a distaste for the word love. It’s so overused. Tossed around like salad, and then sugarcoating it with other words like it’s ranch dressing. They say ‘hate’ is such a strong word- wait till they see how ‘love’ just “slips” out of people’s tongues. It’s really sad because it is a beautiful word. To tell you the truth it gets me really angry sometimes.

I’m falling asleep. Goodnight.